2017/02/02 Have you ever wanted to disappear?

Have you ever wanted to disappear? This is part of the lyrics of a song called "20 Dollar Nose Bleed," by Fall Out Boy. For some reasons I am not quite sure of, this line caught my attention and my heart. 

I have never wanted to disappear. In fact, I don't even know what it is like to disappear. Does it mean deserting my firneds and my family or abandoning relationships? I don't know. I admit that I have several times thought about how long I will have to continue this style of living and gotten dismal. But I have never wanted to disappear.

Besides this, there are surely some lyrics that turn you on for the reasons you don't know. As for me, the songs which have this kind of lines are often produced by what we call punk rock bands: Green Day, the Offsprings, Rise Against, and so on. 

For example, Green Day sings, "Do you have the time to listen to me whine?" And this line caught my attention when I was a high school student. I didn't, and still I don't know why, because I seldom, if ever, whine. I am inclined to think about and find out why, but this attempts have turned out fruitless. But surely the experience of listening to music is interesting not in that it gives you pleasure, excitement or consolation, but in that it can sometimes give me food for thought and chances to reflect on myself.